I'm so desperate...what shall I do now?

I’m sixteen years old now and I’m pregnant. My boyfriend or my ex-boyfriend left me alone as he heard that. Isn’t that a wonderful life? I didn’t speak to him since his sixteenth birthday, the day when I told him that I’m pregnant. It’s unbelievable. I never thought that of him! I thought the problem would be my parents and not Sam. Sure, it’s not easy for him, but for me either and he has the same fault than me. Now I’ve got two problems my parents and Sam. I don’t know what to do, I’m alone. And the best thing is, yesterday Sam’s mum called me, she seemed to be desperate, I didn’t know why, but then I realized that maybe she rings because of me, especially because of my pregnancy. I couldn’t really believe that he already talked to his mum, but not to me. At this moment I blushed although she only was on the phone, I didn’t know what I should tell her. Already in the next moment she asked me if I know where Sam is. That was a great relieve to me. His mum said that he’s gone since yesterday afternoon, first she thought he’s at my house. As I told her that I didn’t see him for days, she was more desperate. After this conversation I was shocked of him another time. Now, he didn’t just leave me, no, now he also went away from home. Sam, isn’t he a wonderful guy? But the problem is I still love him and I don’t know what will happen with me, Sam and the baby in the future.

What will happen in the futur?

It's odd. He is so strange, I can't recognize him. In the last days respectively the last weeks Sam doesn't speek to me often and we didn't spend so much time together anymore. All the time I didn't want to disavow that Sam was bored of our relationship. But now I realize that Sam doesn't love me anymore. The situation has changed but I still love him and I don't know what shall I do now.
But the worst is yet to come. I was waiting for my period all the time but I hoped everything was all right. And then I heared that Sam was going out with another girl. Directly I got jealous. After I was three weeks to late I know that I was pregnant, but I didn't know how to say it Sam. I decided to tell it him at his 16. Birthday. I sent him an message that I want to meet him. We met at Starbucks. He wasn't really surprised. I wanted to buy with him the pregnant test and he agreed. As I went home to get more money he ran off. I was shocked, I didn't believe that and I just felt lonely.

Chapter 3/4 - about Sam

We see us every day. Sometimes we go outside but most of the time we're at alicia's. I'm so happy. I don't know how to explain but it feels so great. Honestly this feeling is a bit strange, but I can't be without him. As I said you can't really explain it, it's odd. Sam is different than the other guys, he is more honest and he doesn't just want to be cool. I like that. Sometimes he is so helpless, that's cute.:)Yes, I think, I love him.

Here is a picture of him. Doesn't he look good? =)